X'mas eve and The horrible dream..

24Dec,
Yeah ~~~~ it's xmas eve !!!
Early morning,i am so excited...
but ofcoz need to go tuition 1st ><...
After tuition,
i , hian n mel go to TESCO buy some food material for later to cook at mel house....
Then, we going to econ class.....@@...

After econ class,i go mel house...to prepare the food....
The people who attend the mel xmas party include:
Me,mel,hian,noel,ah guat,ching li,bea n bea sis,steph,mel family and liu long... xD
We from 5.30pm prepare the food until 8pm ++...
then some of us cant hold it anymur, and then "curi makan"....==
Next,Liu Long reach mel house....and he start to make his "拉面" ....
wooooh~~~~the real "noodle kung fu"....i be his " Noodles Apprentice" ...lol...
His "拉面"...is f*cking delicious !!!....damn !..hahax
The food we have is cheezy sausage,meatball,nugget,egg n tuna sandwich,mushroom soup( this is specially make by mel and the material include 5 type of "moku"..),salad,mash potato,and the last 1 is ...................TURKEY !!!! *This turkey is make by mel mum,this is my 1st time eat this !..woooooooohhhhh~~~its also f*ucking delicious ~~~ LMAO....

Mel mum also get her “中国白酒” and let us drink ...wooooohhh~~~
its 1st time for me too ^^....the alcohol level is so high !!
Ching li just drink 1 cup,then her eyes turn to red edi...ofcoz she not yet drunk...
I drink few cups too....luckily i also din drunk ...hehe ^^

Its 12am,ding dong !!!
We raise up our wine cup and said " Merry Christmas !!! "
Then we play a game with poker card..."Police and The Killer " ..
This game include judge,police,killer and citizen...
Killer need to confuse citizen that his is not killer and make all the citizen feel the police is the killer....
Police need to lead the citizen point to the killer and make him out of the game....
It's reali "宫心计" ....

We play and talk till 7am...
that time i was totally exaushted and take a nap till 8am....
then i back to my hostel by driving my car..that time my eyes still @@...

25 Dec,
I from 9am sleep till 4pm....@@
My classmate invite me to paradise beach at night....
i din go,bcoz i feel want to go back home...hehe
After i reach my home....
i and my old secondary frds going to RAJA UDA TOM YAM !
Yummy ~~~few month din go thr edi..^^

26 Dec,
8.40am i have wake up,but i press my class to off mode ...
and continue sleep....
Then, i have make a horrible dream in my live....
The dreams story is like this:
" When i wake up.....i realise every1 is crying....
i feel weird.... then i found out i was dead ! ><....
I feel so sad ~and my soul go find mum and said " why i so young,and i die edi !...i still got lot thing not yet done....i still din become billionaire and etc....
i am cry badly....i am confuse and dunno when i was die....i remember at midnight i still got sms my frds Noel....then my soul directly appear at my frds thr....he show me his phone and thr write 3.11am i still got sms him....i m cry and tell him..."pls tell my mum,dont put me in coffin and buried me yet"and the i was awake at 11am....it's lucky is just a dream !...My heart feeling is reali like a real 1....just like i cried b4......><.....

But,anyway its just a dream......^^
It's to be good that i still alive .......

"He" and "She"

算一算。。。。都已经七个月了。。。
“他” 和 “她” 都还在原地踏步。。。
“他” 在等着 “她” 的旧伤疗好。。。。
如今，“她” 疗好90% 了。。
“她” 一直当“他” 是好朋友而已。。。。。
“他” 真的不知道该如何。。。。进退两难。。。。
“他”很少会遇到让“他”心动的 “她”。。。。。
如今，遇到了，却不能做什么。。。
只能继续等待或放弃。。。。
“他”真的很不想放弃。。。
“他”很想去争取，但担心争取到最后。。。还是失败，连朋友也当不成。。。。
“他”也很想不顾一切后果，直冲就对了。。。
但有怕伤害到 “她”。。。。

“他”觉得“她”已经发现“他”已经爱上“她”了。。。。。
最近，当“他” SMS “她”时，“她” 只是敷衍的恢复“他”而以。。。。
“她” 是要 “他” 对 “她”死心而已吗？？？

“他”时常想起“她”。。。。
当“他”想起“她”时，
心情会变得很复杂。。。。。
心情变得：
低落。。。。
有一股冲动想要打给“她”听听“她”的声音。。。
想见见“她”。。。。
听“她”喜欢听的歌时，都会想起“她”。。。。
“他”是疯了吗？！不正常了吗？。。

“他”对“她”的感觉是认真的。。。。
“他”真的很矛盾。。。
“他”该继续等待或争取呢？
“他”只能希望将来会有改变吧。。。。

“他”要对“她”说 ：“我真的很想念你！”。。。“我对你是认真的 ！ ”。。。。“你听到了吗？！”........

BookS and CdS...

Dec 7,12.00am

This few weeks,

i spend my time all in studies...

Study for midterm test....

Assignment....

Presentation...

When free,

i will read some self-enrichment book..

n

Hear Kenny G saxophone music~~

It's romantic n relax my mind n soul *Thumbs up

25 Nov,i and my housemate

Whole 4-20 going to ONE STOP POPULAR FAIR....

When i step into the fair,

I saw Twilight Series book...got 30% Discount ^^

I waiting this fair for quiet long time d....

After that,

I buy Kenny G Love Ballads album..

This is the 1st time i bought an Original album...=)

Twilight Book until now i dont have time to read it,

need wait until after next mon FM test...

only got time ro read it :(

3-5Dec i work at PISA PC EXPO,

The 1st day when i work,

i din sold out anything...

bcoz that day i have sorethroat and stomach feeling unwell ><

The 2nd n 3rd day get better d ^^

But everyday after work also felt damn tired la @@

Collecting money for buy NIKON DSLR xD

This coming Thur,got Business Economics test @@....

2molo morning i only start study....

Because today me r pretty tired ><...

The photo below is the books and album i buy it recently :

幸福就像狗尾巴，I bought this book at 1st week of Nov..

i read this book while i sit ferry to Penang Jetty...

把嘲笑当激励

I bought this book at 2nd week of Nov

I also always bring it along with me...

I like this book Author and its story line...

It give me alot +ve thinking,encouragement ^^

A series of Twilight Book :Twilight Saga,New Moon,Eclipse and Breaking Dawn

Book I-III have be shown on Cinema...Book IV will on Cinema at next year ^^

It's about the romantic love story between Vampire and Human....

Ori price : Rm188

Popular Fair : Rm130

I gonna to read all this after next mon FM test,

I might take long time to read all this...

Bcoz my english r poor....so i can improve my english while reading ^^

Twilight Saga

New Moon

Eclipse

Breaking Dawn

This is the 1st ori album i bought at my life !! ^^

The romance music make me feel relax xDD

Last thur 2Dec,i bought this Kenny G -Heart n Soul newest album ..

All music just can described by 1 word 'WoooHooooo"

This is wat happen on me at last month ....

I will update my blog again when free ^^

Sleepy day ...& M5 "sick" edi...

Nov 2, 2.00am

It's a raining day....
the weather is cold.......
So comfort to have a sleep....

Nov 1,
I was sleep at 3am lastnight...
and i need to wake uo at 7.30am....
I m late sleep for few days edi...
I m late to in my tut class..
I moving my law tut,Bernard things from one table to another....
Then he said : "why when u move people thing,never ask people 1 ?" ==...."what's ur name? "....and i ans ...
He keep pay attention on me...although my eyes is extreme tired,but cant close it and sleep...if i sleep,he sure shoot me again" ==....he very guai giat 1 ....==

After that i going to Econ lec,
that time i m totally exhausted!!!
After LBL talk for 45min,
i reali cant hold it anymur..i directly sleep until the lec finish....@@
After the class finish,i realize that SH follow AY them go eat lunch...
SH din join us since last mon...i feel weird,is that she still angry or care about the incident happen at last 2 thur ?......

My another best frd,N.A...
He just break with his gf,
his mood r not stable....and always feel lonely....
So,he decide to join more friend and any1....include the people he and we ignore...
I feel sick of that,bcoz although lonely...but we also no need to join the people we dont lke....
and his dont have mood on studies..
We need to save him....

My class friendship n relationship r totally complicated....
i feel confused and pressure on my mind...

I hope i got that power to solve our class problem...

2molo i will back to T.I,
miss my home so much...
1 week plus back to house edi...
Summur this weekend i m gonna to KL work,
not going back to hometown again...

I really miss my family n her badly right now...
comlicated feeling

2.14am

D'Piazza & NoV> The whole new me ^^

It's 2.24am...

I just bath finish...Just after finish work,
melinda mum bring all worker to 中国风味馆 steambot !
The surrounding is awesome !!ofcoz the food is delicous too xDD...
Ho liao Ho liao !!...

29OCT-31OCT, i work at D'Piazza PC Show...
In this 3 days,i just sell out one writing pad...==

In this 3 days, i also think my class problem...
feel that M5 is "sick" edi...all classmate frdship r change....
feel not well on that...n decide to solve it !!
So, i will find time talk with few housemate...
i might be the bad guy to ask them n force them to say out wwat happen ....
I hope i will success !

In this 3 days,although i m busy....
but her always run into my mind...
i am more miss her than when i am free....
That feeling make me feel bad ~
bcoz damn miss her...
Feel want to phone her....
but...what to do...
cant phone also....
The feeling r so strong....

Today is a new month edi ~NOV..
I am changing my style since this sem start...
the way i talk...studies....
Now all still process-ING....
This month i want done best than last month !!
Although i not reali confidence,
but sure i will try do 100% n till last min !!
Have many life target in this month ....

This the thing that happen in me in this 3 days....
and the target of NOV....

^^

A silence Night

Now is 1.35am....

I am alone at my hostel living room....

Just now,read law book for 15min.....and felt no mood to study on it.....

Heart feel empty,but not sad.....just empty...

I feel that this 2 day i done nothing....

although i got revision...but still lazy everyday go jogging...

I still cant fully 4low my own schedule...

I need more insistence.....

Yesterday (tue) ,

Early morning wake up,

the 1st people i think is her...^^

And then i going to attend TDM 9am lec...

i was late for 10min....i thaught i was really late...

But i and classmate for 20min,is 9.30...TDM still din still not yet reach...

And it's an annoucement "LEC cancel !! "

==lll ....waste my time ! so late only inform ~.~
I better at home sleep 2 more hour :P

Then i and classmate went to ANANDAS have our breakfast....

That's nth special..When i heard some1 laugh,i felt her sound like a WITCH @@....i felt sick of that ~.~

After class finish, i reach home and chat with my housemate ....

then i take a nap until 7.30pm....

and then i went to Night market....ate dinner at thr....

i order chicken rice,and it make me waot for so long....

the uncle always 4get that is me order that....><

I also have told my frd,i 2week ++ din meet Pp de....

and when i reach hostel downstair,i met her....hahax... xDD

Next,my housemate Pk teach me how the play CS....

i was 1st time play this on9 game ==....

he play it since FORM 1 @@....

i m so outdated......

After train for 1 hour,my eyes edi become like this >>> @@

So i stop it ....

Then, i read LAW book for 15min i edi no mood....zzz

This my wholeday activity....

I m wasting my own time !

I m gonna to fix it!!

I need more insistence..

Recently, i m reading a self-enrichment....

that book teach-ing me alot thing.....

So,now i m gonna to read that book n sleep ^^

Jia you jia you for myself.....hahax

It's a new day new start !

1.54am END...

A Book n A BiRthDay =)

Today the purpose i going to Pacific is for exchange PS3 game n buy Kher Shin present......

So,i walk in to Popular.....
Buy my own stuff stationery..
read some books...
and i found this book....
Now i just read 30 pages....
the things he write is powerfull and usefull to student n worker...
it slowly change our thinking to right position....
The writer is a PHD Holder...he write his life experience n teach us....
It's a wonderfull Book !!


After that, i squeeze my brain think should buy what present for her.....
I know her since Form4....this is the 4th year i give present to her...
Almost every category have buy b4 for her edi...~.~
Finally,i buy a note book n gold colour pen....
it's look simple n priceless....
but i have something inside the book....
n the purpose of i give a book as a present to her.....
It will be usefull n meaningfull for her...

Although now i m not at penang celebrate with her,
but i say "Kher Shin,HAPPY BIRTHDAY" at here n post pic at here 1st.....
Hope she will receive my "Xin Yi"....hahax

Once again, Happy BirthDay n sweet 20 ~~~

Time to Change & Fix =)

Recently i feel that....
i dont have much best friends...
Maybe it's cause by my behavior and attitude....
Sometimes i talk too loud or too fast....
they r thinking me "beh syok" them or fierce....actually i m not...
The main problem is on the way i communicate ..

2nd..
Sometimes i like to control people...
I need people to 4low my instruction....
Sometimes is helping people,but sometimes also make people fed up....

3rd...
I too siao kia sometimes....
Friends tought i cant serious to do something....
and me also cant earn respect....
Friends make "over joke" to me...
I dont like tat....~.~
Maybe i small gas ??
this is the thing i confuse @@

So.....
From now onwards,
I want to change the way i communicate...
Less control people,helping more....
I need to be more serious and no more siao kia ^^...

TIME TO CHANGE & FIX =)

Life have Change....bye bye 1311hostel...

Longtime din update my life story to this blog edi...
kinda busy...
everyweek assignment,presentation,test and etc....
this the TARCian life....@@
And i always insist in some thinking,now i m change...i don1 care it anymore....let's be more mature....its worthless....*bcoz edi quarrel for many times and i m finally awake

I also join CCC group work at Pc Fair-penang,KL...
it's fun and the most relax work....
Melinda mum is a very kind boss....
always treat us eat "Ho Liao"
I'm enjoy to work ^^
Next week i gonna to work again,
for earn some pocket $$$...hahax...

During exam time.....
I always go Shu Hua house....
She teach us MAF from fail >>>>A or B grade...
thanks her...evryday learn 8hour ++....
And me also going to Melinda house....
she's teach me TAXATION....from 12pm-1.30am....
tat's kill me....
on the way back to hostel,kheng loon still memorize the format n speak to me...
it's help me but also make me @@ and my brain was totally stuck....
The gap for this time test schedule is too tight...
I everyday at least study 16hours @@.....1st time try this !!
I and kheng loon study FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING 2gether for 18hours .....
b4 going to exam hall....we aim for A.....after exam finish we just aim for PASS!
The Question is too hard...i can confirm is hard than PYQ....and not enough time to done it...
Every scholarship holder r worry,bcoz once they get C or FAIL....they will loss their scholarship...
lucky i m not ~....hoho ^^....
I'm sleep very less for 10days exam @@.....it's killing myself...

3Sep test finish !!! I and classmate going to gurney eat lunch...
and watch step up 3!!!
Wo~~~their dance is fantastic.....especiallly when dance on water and the popping !!their head like breaking edi .....*thumb ups
Night,we go steambot.....
Shu hua always fight speed to drink water with us @@....at the end she full till want vomit.....LMAO...

Sem 2 start i will move to Kheng Loon hostel edi....a new hostel n surrounding for me....
bcoz my currently hostel.....pretty bored..all housemate always lock in their room....
and pretend living room is a road for them pass through to toilet...
I'm the one who always at living room...
And hostel cleanliness are not relly good..
full of dust and hair....
i always flu and cough at thr....
But i also feel peacefull at thr....
i can turn on my music loudly.....use the living room table by 1 person...
do watever i want....i'm quiet enjoy of that ^^...
but sometimes is not reali convenience...bcoz 3/5 is girls....hahax
Hope i will get happier n better life by stay at new hostel soon....=)

Now just holiday for 4 days,
i feel pretty boring.....
always stay at home...Wake up >>>>eat >>>>Facebook>>>>Movie >>>Sleep
tat's my duration of the day @@...
and i need to arrange n plan thing for mine new hostel ^^
Erm.....not reali happpy at home...bcoz of some family problem ><....
sometimes feel at hostel is more good ~....
But they still my family....i have no choice...need to settle and help ~....
Hope it will pass soon....^^

Longtime din meet with secondary school friends....
miss them so much~~
Hope can meet up soon ......

This is the Entrepreneurship Presentation !!All LEE's...hahax ^^

TarC Oddesey Night ....
Still wearing the same formal shirt,pants and shoe ==lll...
But its an enjoyable night ^^

The following is my currently hostel...need to leave it soon ><...

Living Room

Place To keep my Food

Canteen

My room ^^.....messy ???

My Room ...

Some of my stuff ...can c clearly ?

Place to put shoes...

Bath room....dirty??...*devil laugh

*WISH EVERYTHING GETTING BETTER and BETTER =)

好多好多事情发生了！！！

好久没来这里更新了。。。。

17/5/2010，
新的学期开始了，
当我踏入我的宿舍。。。
感觉超不习惯。。。。
因为我的好友兼“妈妈”搬走了。。。。
好像进错家。。。
微波炉没了。。。。吊tuala的没了。。。那股“妈妈”的味道没了。。。。
全新的人事物，但环境却有点改变而已。。。。
过了四天。。。。我开始习惯了。。。
那知拜四那天，我准备回到家里去。。。
突然，接到妈打来的电话。。。
说爸轻微中风了，赶着去医院。。。
那时候我的心情DOWN 了下来。。。
非常紧张。。。。
最终，姐打电话来。。。说爸没事了，打针之后好多了。。。
隔天，我去看爸。。。
我看得出他好伤心。。。。
因为他右手虽然能动，但不是很有力。。
暂时无法工作。。。。

探望爸之后，心情变得超差的。。。
因为我在开学之前，
我已经告诉他 :"爸，别操劳过度了，我会少花点钱“。。。
我最不想发生的事发生了！

星期天，
我和哥再去探望老爸。。。
老爸脸好憔悴。。。。
我干妈干爹都在那。。。
他们是我爸的老板。
我超生气他们的！！！想宰了他们！
之前，我妈有跟他们提起找一个帮手帮我老爸。。。
别让他操劳过度。。。
我爸才进医院两天。。。（我爸是做送冰块的罗里司机）
当我干爹自己做时，就立刻找到一个帮手了！
他们是人吗？！我爸时，就讲找不到！
来看我爸才给RM300。。。很多吗？！
即使他们给三百万我都觉得少！ 买的到我爸的健康吗？?
他们得负起50%责任。。。
弄到我FLAME ON TO THE MAX !!!!
我看到我爸这样，我眼泪都流了出来。。
我偷偷跑去厕所把眼泪流出来。。。
我好久没哭了！！！
认识我的人都知道如果我的心不是很痛很伤，我是不会流眼泪的！
那天，我回到宿舍后。。
心情依然很坏！！！
所以一个人跑去沙滩。。。。一个人静静地坐着那边思考和把自己冷静了下来。
像疯子一样，一个人坐在沙滩上1hour 30min。。。
那一整个星期，我好像恶魔上身一样。。。
做了平常都不会做的东西！！！

如今过了两个星期，
爸好多了。。
但依然还不能去工作。。
我和妈都好担心我们一家人的生活费。。。
我这个月还能顶得过去。。。
哥姐有给我钱。。。
过的一天就一天。。。
我和妈都在想办法。。
因为爸妈都需要生活费啊。。。
我还在读书。。。哥姐薪水也不高，他们也有自己的生活啊。。。。
我真的好担心。。。
可能得去找工作了。。。但又怕影响学业。。
因为我要得到最好的成绩，以后工钱会比较高啊！
真希望这一切赶快过去。。。赶快毕业出来找工改善家里的环境！！！
救救我啊~~~

忍 or 接受 ？ & 天使 or 恶魔

我的心很复杂。。。。很乱。。。。

我真的很难接受事实。。。
挡了这样多。。。好努力了。。。拚了！！！！
结果还是这样。。。。。

她讲这对我们是最好的安排。。。
这根本就不是我想要的安排。。。

好担心~。。。。
她都决定了。。。我只好成全她。。。

这真的是最好吗？？？
我希望吧。。。。

也许我不舍得这一切吧。。。
也许是我在担心吧。。。。。

师父长讲：“舍是一种解脱，舍是为了得到跟好的东西”。。。。。
我实在很难去做到。。。

我就只可以忍忍忍还是忍。。。。除了忍还可以怎样？？？
只好逼自己去接受吗？？？
我可以两个都不要选择吗？？？
好残忍！

我脑中的天使与恶魔天天都在战斗。。。。
战斗才可以平息一切战争而带来和平吗？？
我很想问“他们”可以停止了吗？
我的心和头都快爆开来了。。。。。

好乱~~
好不舍~~~

这方法真的能结束一切了吗？？希望吧。。。。。
别在多来几刀了。。。
我已经无法再忍耐再顶下去了。。。。

痛到麻了。。。。

那晚。。。眼泪在眼里“打”了几圈。。。最后还是掉了几滴下来~~。。。。

我还能压抑到几时啊。。。

7 FEB ReUnIoN & CNY GaTh3rInG

7 FEB 2010...

Secondary Frd Reunion!

Pizza-Hut

Girls

Brothers

GSC:撕票风云

颁奖？

McD

B.sin Blur???

Say:Cheese~

年初三

McD

Tiger Year..Then they show the Tiger pose??

年初五

Ks house >>> Petai(Hc) House >>> Vspox

We eat western food at ks house...

it's delicious~

Got spagethi with tomato n white sos..

fish n chip

fried chicken

Then,we gamble....

I remain neutral..

which means din lose n win

Then we go petai house,

gamble again....zzz

Lose rm20 at there...T.T

after that we eat the Hai Nan food...

Yummy!

Got steambot,chic,special hainan chili sos...

the best1 is petai...

it less smelly than normal1...

After that we go V-Spox sing karaoke...

got 1 extreme power song to intro..

that is 死了都要爱，信乐团

we sing together loudly!!!!

The next day,our voice have change...haha

Let's c the pic..

Ks House

2 female Tiger...haha

Me,ks,kenn...this year famour BOX style shirt..

She so happiness..between 2 leng zai..lolz

Cheese & Me

Wondergirls?

Ngam ngam..same style eh shirt xD

Petai & Ks

Pattern all banyak banyak^^

This is my CNY & Reunion life!!!

I LOVE REUNION

虎年快乐 & 新工作经验

恭祝大家虎年快乐。。。

我希望我能像虎一样勇敢&有威力。。。。

很多人对虎年有点恐惧。。。
我师父就讲虎和福字拼音很一样。。。
所以我们就把它当着福年。。。。

上两个星期，都到干妈五金店工作。。。
卖建筑材料的。。。。
好多大大小小的东西。。实在难记它的位置。。。
第一次坐这种工。。。。以前都做卖衣的。。。
这次每天一到三点，店里就超热的。。。
我都快溶了。。。。超辛苦的。。。。
但我还是过了。。。。
真佩服我老爸的耐力。。。。
做这行都三十年啦。。。。
这就是伟大父母对我们儿女所付出的吧。。。。。。。
虽然工钱很少，
但我学会了很多新东西。。。。
真开心！！！
学会了很多建筑的东西。。。哈哈
虽然我是读会计的啦。。。
这就是我的新工作经验啦。。。哈哈

新年快乐！！！

JaN & FeB 2010

January

2/1-3/1/2010

I & Family going to cameron highland!!!

My hair still lala at that time..
Yo!We pluck the leaf...

Happy Family~

February

7/2/2010

Yoyo!!!Secondary school frd REUNION!!!!

( Pizza-Hut)

Mac Donald!!!

Brothers!!!

My blog full of 1meter dust edi....

bcoz end of Jan final exam...

Now holiday!!!

Yeah yeah...CNY is nearing...

will upload CNYpic soon....haha