冰冷的心

我的心又结了冰了。。。怎么办？。。。。

好久没这个感觉了。。。

感觉新的吉隆坡生活好无趣。。。

心好像被封锁了。。。

对一切事物好像隔了一道墙。。。

怎么办？！

感触....爸爸 妈妈 人生

3 June 2011,

今天，
早上陪老爸和老妈去巴刹。。。
自从我上了学院以后，好久没陪他们去巴刹了。。
我看到很多卖东西都是中年人和老人。。。他们都为他们的生活打拼~
那时我有感触，我在想即使。。。赚到很多钱,可以买到自己想要的东西。。。
的确很快乐,但那是短暂的快乐。。。表面的快乐。。。不是内心的永久快乐或内在的富裕!!
但没钱，买不到自己要的东西时呢？= 痛苦？争扎？！
因贫穷被人看不起时呢？-憎恨 ？！ 发誓一定要变有钱人？！那我们就会拼！那就跟以上我讲的老年人一样，拼到老 ？！。。。

这时刻我只想要简单和快乐的生活....

刚才看到老妈折纸，搬纸（从工厂拿来的纸，〉 折纸，搬纸是我妈的工作）。。。
我看老妈折纸和搬纸到很累。。。看了很心痛。。56岁了~。。。
这都是为了生活。。。（自从老爸去年轻微制中风以后，换了几分工作。。因为体力有限，和不适合。。。。所以现在老爸没工作了。。在家帮老妈打扫和etc。。。当然我哥和姐有多给家用，叔叔也有帮忙。。。但还是很足够）
晚上，老爸帮忙“削”Ban kuang 和 红萝卜。。。准备做“Cai Kuey“的材料。。。。老妈负责做Cai Kuey。。。。这些Cai Kuey都是有人订的。。。。
我是他们唯一的负担，我还剩两年就大学毕业了。。。
看他们这样工作，我心很难受。。。像赶快毕业，赚多多钱。。。想要给老爸和老妈更好的生活（虽然，老妈跟我讲：“虽然现在我们的生活比较辛苦，但我和你老爸都很快乐”)
所以从小我只有一个梦想，那就是成功的企业家....希望在三十岁前能达到
想要赚钱和当企业家的代价是 〉 时间和体力 ！

我的梦想和我早上所感触的。。。就像水和火。。。
根本就两个大大的差别 !

怎样才是真的快乐？富裕？。。。。矛盾 ！！

The Result After I have been Change My Attitude

Last year, 8 sep 2010.....
I have said i want to change my attitude:
-not talking too loud...
-need to talk slower....
-less control people & try to hear suggestion from the others...
-less siao kia

Ya,now 7 month pass...
i have change almost 75%......
But what i get ?!...
The others will just bully ....din respect me...
When others keep "shoot" me,i just talk to them politely.
.bcoz i have promise myself to change own attitude..... but,they r just keep "shoot" me....WHAT THE HELL !!....
Is over until....even i post anything on FB,they also want comment some nonsense or "shoot" me....what i post on FB is serious stuff....not JOKING !!

When join them at public places,they also doing the same thing..... WTF !
Especially "some1" ! when at public places,he talk lounder to me n pretend angry...
i just directly quiet...i m not scared on him ! bcoz is not point to talk with him !
Maybe 1 day, he dare do that on me again !....i will shout him 99 !...

From what i have write just now,is after i change my attitude....more more people is not respect me ! ...

New semester gonna start soon...
i will change my own attituse to be moderate ! n wont let any people bully on me again !! "YOU" want n c what happen soon !!

1983

Now is March 25 ,3.25am.......

After i start my new semester....
i was so busy.....
Until yesterday just finish all my coursework....
and now waiting my final exam at begin of the april......

Last few weeks..i going to an electric therapy clinic...
I saw so many adult or oldman which have stroke before.....
An old ladies..hand,fingers,leg ...有些向内弯，有些向外弯...
she told me...it was an car accident happen at 1983......
After that accident......his hand,fingers and leg get infection and injured...
She din go for therapy....bcoz too busy and need take care of her dad......
until the last 5 years...she only come for this electric therapy...
the thing make me suprise is she still can drive even walking also be a problem for her !!! She tell me....:"although my hands and legs become like this,i still can drive...bcoz we need to be independent and we cant depend on the others forever".....this sentence make me feel so meaningfull and its fix into my mind edi "Independent" !!

Recently....Japan happens earthquake and its cause tsunami.....so many human dead...
and earthquake happen again at Myanmar yesterday....O.O..... OMG !!!
It's just like a symptom telling to us 2012 is gonna to be happen?!
It's so near to Malaysia...
Prays for Japan and Myanmar :(
God bless them....god bless the world....

Nitez every1 ....

Final Exam :( >> Holiday ^^ >> CNY :D

WaA~~ I long time din blogging d ^^

After test ,i busy clean my home for cny ...

and today almost every frd back to school and work edi..

So,finally i have my real own time xD

TARC Y2SEM2 FINAL TEST (7Jan-19Jan2011),

I from 2nd Jan,start study for final test ...

That 18days,i just like in HELL....everyday sleep around 6 hours b4 test reach...

During test ,i everyday almost sleep 2 hours/1 hours or din sleep !! WTH !!

Bcoz the test time table is too pack !!

After test the 3rd subject FAF i very DOWN !!bcoz the question is totally out of my expectation !!

Next,my 5thh subject Business Econ....i quiet tiring that day....

i din done well in this subject

After the test finish ,my whole body like want seperate into few pieces !

DAMN F*CKING tired !!

Night i going out dinner with my classmate ...

after that we go VOODOO for clubbing ~~

yeah yeah ~ *shake shake ....

but i feel MOIS is nicer ....

After back from there,i continue go classmate home drink alcohol drinks ....*devil laugh

The next day, we going to Prangin Mall and 1st Avenue...i go thr to survey DSLR...

and we go 1st Avenue cinema watch “笑着回家”... it's damn FUNNY !!! especially "JLB" this words....which means JIAK LIAO BI ....LMAO !!

After that....friday is last day i stay at penang n prepare going back to hometown....

1st i go to cut a new hair style ^^...i can style my hair as normal korean pattern or mohawk pattern xD

then,I going to Queensbay buy CNY shirt ,pants and etc ^^

HOLIDAY !!

After i back to hometown,

1st mission is help my mum to clean up my family "Books Room"

i choose those old books and bring it to recycle...

then allocate each book to their own category...

There are so much of dust ~always make me "harrrrrr qiuuuuuuu"

i spend whole day to finish my "1st mission"

the 2nd day,

i need to clean up my home storeroom

i have find many toys that i play when i still child ~~

but some spoil edi ....T.T i need throw it

This is the remaining toys ^^

Let me introduce to u all...

Pokemon model~i have over 100pcs !!

This is DIGIMON 02 and DIGIMON 03 Device !!

The green 1,still can work...

really miss my childhood^^

级斗战车 !!

爆旋陀螺 ！！

The 3rd mission is tidy up my wardrobe...

i have choose many old shirt n pants...some of it donate to orphan house and some throw into dustbin T.T

Bcoz those form 3/4 "La La" shirt and pants,i wont wear them go out again !! ....hahax

Then 25 Jan,

i going to penang again....

today i going to buy DSLR!!!

I have been survey around 7 month !!

At 1st i dunno whether to choose NIKON D90 or Canon 60D....

Canon 60D features is more awesome ...

but many professional photographer said ...

NIKON colour and depth is better ~

So i believe them ^^

Ta~~nah~~~My NIKON D90 !!

After i bought this DSLR,i m officially bankrupt !!

I owe my dad RM2k !! ><

But i am very happy ,bcoz finally i have my own DSLR ^^

HAPPY RABBIT YEAR :D

除夕,

mum wake up earlier in the morning....

and prepare foods material...

cook ~~~

then my relatives come to my home and pray our ancestors 1st...

AT night,is reunion dinner time !!!!!

This 1 of the part i most craving of....^^

At sharp 12am,i can hear many firecracker voice !!

and my phone keep "ring ~~~~"....

got a lot of message wish ...:P

初一，

many relatives come to my home...

and i get many ang pao too ^^

and i keep eating biscuit ~~

homecook food ...

OMGOSH !! i m getting fatter ~~

night i going to temple n pray ^^

初二，

Whole family going back to grandmother(mum side) house ^^

there also have a lot of delicious foods ~~ and...............VODKA ~~...*devil laugh

and got alot of ang pao !!!

初三night,

I and my parents going to Sunway Carnival Mall watch

I Love Hong Kong

DAMN FUNNY !!! LOL !!

初四，

I going to Who's Bryan to meet up my secondary school frds...

we 1 year only reunion once ^^

All of them r change xD

Some talk about future business....some discuss about their DSLR...some talk about their Iphone4...

and at last we gamble @@...i have lose rm7 ><

别误会。。。这是拜祖先的~

团圆饭！！！！ 新年里我最爱的一部分 ！！

佛教里的十供 ~ 每一样东西带来不同的意义。。

我老爸 ^^

三舅和他的狗- MAX~

老妈~和我可爱的侄女 :P

Tonight i n parents going to cousin BBQ partyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~....yeah ^^

2molo my old friends,Wai Kee come to my house over9 and will follow me n my parents going to 极乐寺 :DDD

9Feb, my Y2S2 result is coming out ><.....wish my business econ will pass~~~~ang kong po pi ....

noon will going to Ah wan house gather with penang island friends ^^

At last,i at here wish everyone HaPpieeeeeeeeeee Rabbitttttttttttttt Yearrrrrrrr ^^

X'mas eve and The horrible dream..

24Dec,
Yeah ~~~~ it's xmas eve !!!
Early morning,i am so excited...
but ofcoz need to go tuition 1st ><...
After tuition,
i , hian n mel go to TESCO buy some food material for later to cook at mel house....
Then, we going to econ class.....@@...

After econ class,i go mel house...to prepare the food....
The people who attend the mel xmas party include:
Me,mel,hian,noel,ah guat,ching li,bea n bea sis,steph,mel family and liu long... xD
We from 5.30pm prepare the food until 8pm ++...
then some of us cant hold it anymur, and then "curi makan"....==
Next,Liu Long reach mel house....and he start to make his "拉面" ....
wooooh~~~~the real "noodle kung fu"....i be his " Noodles Apprentice" ...lol...
His "拉面"...is f*cking delicious !!!....damn !..hahax
The food we have is cheezy sausage,meatball,nugget,egg n tuna sandwich,mushroom soup( this is specially make by mel and the material include 5 type of "moku"..),salad,mash potato,and the last 1 is ...................TURKEY !!!! *This turkey is make by mel mum,this is my 1st time eat this !..woooooooohhhhh~~~its also f*ucking delicious ~~~ LMAO....

Mel mum also get her “中国白酒” and let us drink ...wooooohhh~~~
its 1st time for me too ^^....the alcohol level is so high !!
Ching li just drink 1 cup,then her eyes turn to red edi...ofcoz she not yet drunk...
I drink few cups too....luckily i also din drunk ...hehe ^^

Its 12am,ding dong !!!
We raise up our wine cup and said " Merry Christmas !!! "
Then we play a game with poker card..."Police and The Killer " ..
This game include judge,police,killer and citizen...
Killer need to confuse citizen that his is not killer and make all the citizen feel the police is the killer....
Police need to lead the citizen point to the killer and make him out of the game....
It's reali "宫心计" ....

We play and talk till 7am...
that time i was totally exaushted and take a nap till 8am....
then i back to my hostel by driving my car..that time my eyes still @@...

25 Dec,
I from 9am sleep till 4pm....@@
My classmate invite me to paradise beach at night....
i din go,bcoz i feel want to go back home...hehe
After i reach my home....
i and my old secondary frds going to RAJA UDA TOM YAM !
Yummy ~~~few month din go thr edi..^^

26 Dec,
8.40am i have wake up,but i press my class to off mode ...
and continue sleep....
Then, i have make a horrible dream in my live....
The dreams story is like this:
" When i wake up.....i realise every1 is crying....
i feel weird.... then i found out i was dead ! ><....
I feel so sad ~and my soul go find mum and said " why i so young,and i die edi !...i still got lot thing not yet done....i still din become billionaire and etc....
i am cry badly....i am confuse and dunno when i was die....i remember at midnight i still got sms my frds Noel....then my soul directly appear at my frds thr....he show me his phone and thr write 3.11am i still got sms him....i m cry and tell him..."pls tell my mum,dont put me in coffin and buried me yet"and the i was awake at 11am....it's lucky is just a dream !...My heart feeling is reali like a real 1....just like i cried b4......><.....

But,anyway its just a dream......^^
It's to be good that i still alive .......

"He" and "She"

算一算。。。。都已经七个月了。。。
“他” 和 “她” 都还在原地踏步。。。
“他” 在等着 “她” 的旧伤疗好。。。。
如今，“她” 疗好90% 了。。
“她” 一直当“他” 是好朋友而已。。。。。
“他” 真的不知道该如何。。。。进退两难。。。。
“他”很少会遇到让“他”心动的 “她”。。。。。
如今，遇到了，却不能做什么。。。
只能继续等待或放弃。。。。
“他”真的很不想放弃。。。
“他”很想去争取，但担心争取到最后。。。还是失败，连朋友也当不成。。。。
“他”也很想不顾一切后果，直冲就对了。。。
但有怕伤害到 “她”。。。。

“他”觉得“她”已经发现“他”已经爱上“她”了。。。。。
最近，当“他” SMS “她”时，“她” 只是敷衍的恢复“他”而以。。。。
“她” 是要 “他” 对 “她”死心而已吗？？？

“他”时常想起“她”。。。。
当“他”想起“她”时，
心情会变得很复杂。。。。。
心情变得：
低落。。。。
有一股冲动想要打给“她”听听“她”的声音。。。
想见见“她”。。。。
听“她”喜欢听的歌时，都会想起“她”。。。。
“他”是疯了吗？！不正常了吗？。。

“他”对“她”的感觉是认真的。。。。
“他”真的很矛盾。。。
“他”该继续等待或争取呢？
“他”只能希望将来会有改变吧。。。。

“他”要对“她”说 ：“我真的很想念你！”。。。“我对你是认真的 ！ ”。。。。“你听到了吗？！”........

BookS and CdS...

Dec 7,12.00am

This few weeks,

i spend my time all in studies...

Study for midterm test....

Assignment....

Presentation...

When free,

i will read some self-enrichment book..

n

Hear Kenny G saxophone music~~

It's romantic n relax my mind n soul *Thumbs up

25 Nov,i and my housemate

Whole 4-20 going to ONE STOP POPULAR FAIR....

When i step into the fair,

I saw Twilight Series book...got 30% Discount ^^

I waiting this fair for quiet long time d....

After that,

I buy Kenny G Love Ballads album..

This is the 1st time i bought an Original album...=)

Twilight Book until now i dont have time to read it,

need wait until after next mon FM test...

only got time ro read it :(

3-5Dec i work at PISA PC EXPO,

The 1st day when i work,

i din sold out anything...

bcoz that day i have sorethroat and stomach feeling unwell ><

The 2nd n 3rd day get better d ^^

But everyday after work also felt damn tired la @@

Collecting money for buy NIKON DSLR xD

This coming Thur,got Business Economics test @@....

2molo morning i only start study....

Because today me r pretty tired ><...

The photo below is the books and album i buy it recently :

幸福就像狗尾巴，I bought this book at 1st week of Nov..

i read this book while i sit ferry to Penang Jetty...

把嘲笑当激励

I bought this book at 2nd week of Nov

I also always bring it along with me...

I like this book Author and its story line...

It give me alot +ve thinking,encouragement ^^

A series of Twilight Book :Twilight Saga,New Moon,Eclipse and Breaking Dawn

Book I-III have be shown on Cinema...Book IV will on Cinema at next year ^^

It's about the romantic love story between Vampire and Human....

Ori price : Rm188

Popular Fair : Rm130

I gonna to read all this after next mon FM test,

I might take long time to read all this...

Bcoz my english r poor....so i can improve my english while reading ^^

Twilight Saga

New Moon

Eclipse

Breaking Dawn

This is the 1st ori album i bought at my life !! ^^

The romance music make me feel relax xDD

Last thur 2Dec,i bought this Kenny G -Heart n Soul newest album ..

All music just can described by 1 word 'WoooHooooo"

This is wat happen on me at last month ....

I will update my blog again when free ^^

Sleepy day ...& M5 "sick" edi...

Nov 2, 2.00am

It's a raining day....
the weather is cold.......
So comfort to have a sleep....

Nov 1,
I was sleep at 3am lastnight...
and i need to wake uo at 7.30am....
I m late sleep for few days edi...
I m late to in my tut class..
I moving my law tut,Bernard things from one table to another....
Then he said : "why when u move people thing,never ask people 1 ?" ==...."what's ur name? "....and i ans ...
He keep pay attention on me...although my eyes is extreme tired,but cant close it and sleep...if i sleep,he sure shoot me again" ==....he very guai giat 1 ....==

After that i going to Econ lec,
that time i m totally exhausted!!!
After LBL talk for 45min,
i reali cant hold it anymur..i directly sleep until the lec finish....@@
After the class finish,i realize that SH follow AY them go eat lunch...
SH din join us since last mon...i feel weird,is that she still angry or care about the incident happen at last 2 thur ?......

My another best frd,N.A...
He just break with his gf,
his mood r not stable....and always feel lonely....
So,he decide to join more friend and any1....include the people he and we ignore...
I feel sick of that,bcoz although lonely...but we also no need to join the people we dont lke....
and his dont have mood on studies..
We need to save him....

My class friendship n relationship r totally complicated....
i feel confused and pressure on my mind...

I hope i got that power to solve our class problem...

2molo i will back to T.I,
miss my home so much...
1 week plus back to house edi...
Summur this weekend i m gonna to KL work,
not going back to hometown again...

I really miss my family n her badly right now...
comlicated feeling

2.14am

D'Piazza & NoV> The whole new me ^^

It's 2.24am...

I just bath finish...Just after finish work,
melinda mum bring all worker to 中国风味馆 steambot !
The surrounding is awesome !!ofcoz the food is delicous too xDD...
Ho liao Ho liao !!...

29OCT-31OCT, i work at D'Piazza PC Show...
In this 3 days,i just sell out one writing pad...==

In this 3 days, i also think my class problem...
feel that M5 is "sick" edi...all classmate frdship r change....
feel not well on that...n decide to solve it !!
So, i will find time talk with few housemate...
i might be the bad guy to ask them n force them to say out wwat happen ....
I hope i will success !

In this 3 days,although i m busy....
but her always run into my mind...
i am more miss her than when i am free....
That feeling make me feel bad ~
bcoz damn miss her...
Feel want to phone her....
but...what to do...
cant phone also....
The feeling r so strong....

Today is a new month edi ~NOV..
I am changing my style since this sem start...
the way i talk...studies....
Now all still process-ING....
This month i want done best than last month !!
Although i not reali confidence,
but sure i will try do 100% n till last min !!
Have many life target in this month ....

This the thing that happen in me in this 3 days....
and the target of NOV....

^^

A silence Night

Now is 1.35am....

I am alone at my hostel living room....

Just now,read law book for 15min.....and felt no mood to study on it.....

Heart feel empty,but not sad.....just empty...

I feel that this 2 day i done nothing....

although i got revision...but still lazy everyday go jogging...

I still cant fully 4low my own schedule...

I need more insistence.....

Yesterday (tue) ,

Early morning wake up,

the 1st people i think is her...^^

And then i going to attend TDM 9am lec...

i was late for 10min....i thaught i was really late...

But i and classmate for 20min,is 9.30...TDM still din still not yet reach...

And it's an annoucement "LEC cancel !! "

==lll ....waste my time ! so late only inform ~.~
I better at home sleep 2 more hour :P

Then i and classmate went to ANANDAS have our breakfast....

That's nth special..When i heard some1 laugh,i felt her sound like a WITCH @@....i felt sick of that ~.~

After class finish, i reach home and chat with my housemate ....

then i take a nap until 7.30pm....

and then i went to Night market....ate dinner at thr....

i order chicken rice,and it make me waot for so long....

the uncle always 4get that is me order that....><

I also have told my frd,i 2week ++ din meet Pp de....

and when i reach hostel downstair,i met her....hahax... xDD

Next,my housemate Pk teach me how the play CS....

i was 1st time play this on9 game ==....

he play it since FORM 1 @@....

i m so outdated......

After train for 1 hour,my eyes edi become like this >>> @@

So i stop it ....

Then, i read LAW book for 15min i edi no mood....zzz

This my wholeday activity....

I m wasting my own time !

I m gonna to fix it!!

I need more insistence..

Recently, i m reading a self-enrichment....

that book teach-ing me alot thing.....

So,now i m gonna to read that book n sleep ^^

Jia you jia you for myself.....hahax

It's a new day new start !

1.54am END...

A Book n A BiRthDay =)

Today the purpose i going to Pacific is for exchange PS3 game n buy Kher Shin present......

So,i walk in to Popular.....
Buy my own stuff stationery..
read some books...
and i found this book....
Now i just read 30 pages....
the things he write is powerfull and usefull to student n worker...
it slowly change our thinking to right position....
The writer is a PHD Holder...he write his life experience n teach us....
It's a wonderfull Book !!


After that, i squeeze my brain think should buy what present for her.....
I know her since Form4....this is the 4th year i give present to her...
Almost every category have buy b4 for her edi...~.~
Finally,i buy a note book n gold colour pen....
it's look simple n priceless....
but i have something inside the book....
n the purpose of i give a book as a present to her.....
It will be usefull n meaningfull for her...

Although now i m not at penang celebrate with her,
but i say "Kher Shin,HAPPY BIRTHDAY" at here n post pic at here 1st.....
Hope she will receive my "Xin Yi"....hahax

Once again, Happy BirthDay n sweet 20 ~~~

Time to Change & Fix =)

Recently i feel that....
i dont have much best friends...
Maybe it's cause by my behavior and attitude....
Sometimes i talk too loud or too fast....
they r thinking me "beh syok" them or fierce....actually i m not...
The main problem is on the way i communicate ..

2nd..
Sometimes i like to control people...
I need people to 4low my instruction....
Sometimes is helping people,but sometimes also make people fed up....

3rd...
I too siao kia sometimes....
Friends tought i cant serious to do something....
and me also cant earn respect....
Friends make "over joke" to me...
I dont like tat....~.~
Maybe i small gas ??
this is the thing i confuse @@

So.....
From now onwards,
I want to change the way i communicate...
Less control people,helping more....
I need to be more serious and no more siao kia ^^...

TIME TO CHANGE & FIX =)

Life have Change....bye bye 1311hostel...

Longtime din update my life story to this blog edi...
kinda busy...
everyweek assignment,presentation,test and etc....
this the TARCian life....@@
And i always insist in some thinking,now i m change...i don1 care it anymore....let's be more mature....its worthless....*bcoz edi quarrel for many times and i m finally awake

I also join CCC group work at Pc Fair-penang,KL...
it's fun and the most relax work....
Melinda mum is a very kind boss....
always treat us eat "Ho Liao"
I'm enjoy to work ^^
Next week i gonna to work again,
for earn some pocket $$$...hahax...

During exam time.....
I always go Shu Hua house....
She teach us MAF from fail >>>>A or B grade...
thanks her...evryday learn 8hour ++....
And me also going to Melinda house....
she's teach me TAXATION....from 12pm-1.30am....
tat's kill me....
on the way back to hostel,kheng loon still memorize the format n speak to me...
it's help me but also make me @@ and my brain was totally stuck....
The gap for this time test schedule is too tight...
I everyday at least study 16hours @@.....1st time try this !!
I and kheng loon study FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING 2gether for 18hours .....
b4 going to exam hall....we aim for A.....after exam finish we just aim for PASS!
The Question is too hard...i can confirm is hard than PYQ....and not enough time to done it...
Every scholarship holder r worry,bcoz once they get C or FAIL....they will loss their scholarship...
lucky i m not ~....hoho ^^....
I'm sleep very less for 10days exam @@.....it's killing myself...

3Sep test finish !!! I and classmate going to gurney eat lunch...
and watch step up 3!!!
Wo~~~their dance is fantastic.....especiallly when dance on water and the popping !!their head like breaking edi .....*thumb ups
Night,we go steambot.....
Shu hua always fight speed to drink water with us @@....at the end she full till want vomit.....LMAO...

Sem 2 start i will move to Kheng Loon hostel edi....a new hostel n surrounding for me....
bcoz my currently hostel.....pretty bored..all housemate always lock in their room....
and pretend living room is a road for them pass through to toilet...
I'm the one who always at living room...
And hostel cleanliness are not relly good..
full of dust and hair....
i always flu and cough at thr....
But i also feel peacefull at thr....
i can turn on my music loudly.....use the living room table by 1 person...
do watever i want....i'm quiet enjoy of that ^^...
but sometimes is not reali convenience...bcoz 3/5 is girls....hahax
Hope i will get happier n better life by stay at new hostel soon....=)

Now just holiday for 4 days,
i feel pretty boring.....
always stay at home...Wake up >>>>eat >>>>Facebook>>>>Movie >>>Sleep
tat's my duration of the day @@...
and i need to arrange n plan thing for mine new hostel ^^
Erm.....not reali happpy at home...bcoz of some family problem ><....
sometimes feel at hostel is more good ~....
But they still my family....i have no choice...need to settle and help ~....
Hope it will pass soon....^^

Longtime din meet with secondary school friends....
miss them so much~~
Hope can meet up soon ......

This is the Entrepreneurship Presentation !!All LEE's...hahax ^^

TarC Oddesey Night ....
Still wearing the same formal shirt,pants and shoe ==lll...
But its an enjoyable night ^^

The following is my currently hostel...need to leave it soon ><...

Living Room

Place To keep my Food

Canteen

My room ^^.....messy ???

My Room ...

Some of my stuff ...can c clearly ?

Place to put shoes...

Bath room....dirty??...*devil laugh

*WISH EVERYTHING GETTING BETTER and BETTER =)

好多好多事情发生了！！！

好久没来这里更新了。。。。

17/5/2010，
新的学期开始了，
当我踏入我的宿舍。。。
感觉超不习惯。。。。
因为我的好友兼“妈妈”搬走了。。。。
好像进错家。。。
微波炉没了。。。。吊tuala的没了。。。那股“妈妈”的味道没了。。。。
全新的人事物，但环境却有点改变而已。。。。
过了四天。。。。我开始习惯了。。。
那知拜四那天，我准备回到家里去。。。
突然，接到妈打来的电话。。。
说爸轻微中风了，赶着去医院。。。
那时候我的心情DOWN 了下来。。。
非常紧张。。。。
最终，姐打电话来。。。说爸没事了，打针之后好多了。。。
隔天，我去看爸。。。
我看得出他好伤心。。。。
因为他右手虽然能动，但不是很有力。。
暂时无法工作。。。。

探望爸之后，心情变得超差的。。。
因为我在开学之前，
我已经告诉他 :"爸，别操劳过度了，我会少花点钱“。。。
我最不想发生的事发生了！

星期天，
我和哥再去探望老爸。。。
老爸脸好憔悴。。。。
我干妈干爹都在那。。。
他们是我爸的老板。
我超生气他们的！！！想宰了他们！
之前，我妈有跟他们提起找一个帮手帮我老爸。。。
别让他操劳过度。。。
我爸才进医院两天。。。（我爸是做送冰块的罗里司机）
当我干爹自己做时，就立刻找到一个帮手了！
他们是人吗？！我爸时，就讲找不到！
来看我爸才给RM300。。。很多吗？！
即使他们给三百万我都觉得少！ 买的到我爸的健康吗？?
他们得负起50%责任。。。
弄到我FLAME ON TO THE MAX !!!!
我看到我爸这样，我眼泪都流了出来。。
我偷偷跑去厕所把眼泪流出来。。。
我好久没哭了！！！
认识我的人都知道如果我的心不是很痛很伤，我是不会流眼泪的！
那天，我回到宿舍后。。
心情依然很坏！！！
所以一个人跑去沙滩。。。。一个人静静地坐着那边思考和把自己冷静了下来。
像疯子一样，一个人坐在沙滩上1hour 30min。。。
那一整个星期，我好像恶魔上身一样。。。
做了平常都不会做的东西！！！

如今过了两个星期，
爸好多了。。
但依然还不能去工作。。
我和妈都好担心我们一家人的生活费。。。
我这个月还能顶得过去。。。
哥姐有给我钱。。。
过的一天就一天。。。
我和妈都在想办法。。
因为爸妈都需要生活费啊。。。
我还在读书。。。哥姐薪水也不高，他们也有自己的生活啊。。。。
我真的好担心。。。
可能得去找工作了。。。但又怕影响学业。。
因为我要得到最好的成绩，以后工钱会比较高啊！
真希望这一切赶快过去。。。赶快毕业出来找工改善家里的环境！！！
救救我啊~~~

忍 or 接受 ？ & 天使 or 恶魔

我的心很复杂。。。。很乱。。。。

我真的很难接受事实。。。
挡了这样多。。。好努力了。。。拚了！！！！
结果还是这样。。。。。

她讲这对我们是最好的安排。。。
这根本就不是我想要的安排。。。

好担心~。。。。
她都决定了。。。我只好成全她。。。

这真的是最好吗？？？
我希望吧。。。。

也许我不舍得这一切吧。。。
也许是我在担心吧。。。。。

师父长讲：“舍是一种解脱，舍是为了得到跟好的东西”。。。。。
我实在很难去做到。。。

我就只可以忍忍忍还是忍。。。。除了忍还可以怎样？？？
只好逼自己去接受吗？？？
我可以两个都不要选择吗？？？
好残忍！

我脑中的天使与恶魔天天都在战斗。。。。
战斗才可以平息一切战争而带来和平吗？？
我很想问“他们”可以停止了吗？
我的心和头都快爆开来了。。。。。

好乱~~
好不舍~~~

这方法真的能结束一切了吗？？希望吧。。。。。
别在多来几刀了。。。
我已经无法再忍耐再顶下去了。。。。

痛到麻了。。。。

那晚。。。眼泪在眼里“打”了几圈。。。最后还是掉了几滴下来~~。。。。

我还能压抑到几时啊。。。

7 FEB ReUnIoN & CNY GaTh3rInG

7 FEB 2010...

Secondary Frd Reunion!

Pizza-Hut

Girls

Brothers

GSC:撕票风云

颁奖？

McD

B.sin Blur???

Say:Cheese~

年初三

McD

Tiger Year..Then they show the Tiger pose??

年初五

Ks house >>> Petai(Hc) House >>> Vspox

We eat western food at ks house...

it's delicious~

Got spagethi with tomato n white sos..

fish n chip

fried chicken

Then,we gamble....

I remain neutral..

which means din lose n win

Then we go petai house,

gamble again....zzz

Lose rm20 at there...T.T

after that we eat the Hai Nan food...

Yummy!

Got steambot,chic,special hainan chili sos...

the best1 is petai...

it less smelly than normal1...

After that we go V-Spox sing karaoke...

got 1 extreme power song to intro..

that is 死了都要爱，信乐团

we sing together loudly!!!!

The next day,our voice have change...haha

Let's c the pic..

Ks House

2 female Tiger...haha

Me,ks,kenn...this year famour BOX style shirt..

She so happiness..between 2 leng zai..lolz

Cheese & Me

Wondergirls?

Ngam ngam..same style eh shirt xD

Petai & Ks

Pattern all banyak banyak^^

This is my CNY & Reunion life!!!

I LOVE REUNION